It took me a long time to realize that my anger was only a manifestation of fear. caused by a dis-empowering belief . The belief I’d developed, was that I wasn’t good enough, smart enough or deserving enough, this belief created a fear of failure and it was this underlying fear that expressed itself in anger. This fear of failure was hiding behind the anger. My ego was hiding the belief behind anger. Creating anger is a tactic of the ego. The ego promotes anger because the False Self believes we are incomplete, that we are lacking something, therefore not good enough.
It’s because of this Consciousness of Scarcity that a person is fearful. How many ventures never get off the ground, how many classes are never taken, because of fear. How often do we avoid introducing ourselves to a potential new friend, reaching out to someone, trying something new, asking for help, going beyond our comfort level or simply thinking outside the box, because of this fear? Fear of failure can be the difference between getting started and not getting started, between winning and losing. Fear affects the quality of our lives, as well as our effectiveness and levels of success in life.
When your in Fear you believe that your value is based on performance, if you perform well you are worthy, if you fail to perform well you are worthless. When Fear rules, you are disappointed and offended if you fail to receive when you give. And when we give it’s always because we want the positive feedback for ourselves. If we don’t receive acknowledgement or recognition by others we think it’s because we’re inadequate or not worthy.
Typical Fear based behaviors are. Choosing to judge as opposed to showing compassion. Having an inner dialogue of self-criticism. Avoidance of authentic intimacy while at the same time engaging in perpetual conversations about ourselves. Making excuses about being selfish and being insensitive and disrespectful to others.
Fear and Anger keep the Ego on center stage, and the Ego loves the stage. It stays on stage by promoting the Fear of inadequacy and shortcomings. It feeds the belief that we are unique, separate and special. As long as we believe this we are less likely to take any risks that might dispel these beliefs and push the Ego off the stage. The Ego thrives on quilt and keeps us from forgiving ourselves.
Once I became aware that this fear was based on the dis-empowering belief of not being good enough or smart enough or deserving enough I was able to start pushing the Ego off the stage. I started for the first time to actually listen. I became aware that my Ego was not my amigo but instead had created this illusion that I mistook for me. So started my slow journey out of the Consciousness of Scarcity.
Again, it’s the beliefs held in our Divine Mind (the mind of God), that creates the reality of our lives. The Abundant Universe was designed by God to grow Man, to give Man anything he believes. We can choose (Free Will) what we believe. If we choose a Consciousness of Scarcity the Universe will provide scarcity. If on the other hand we choose a Consciousness of Abundance then the Universe will provide. It’s really that simple. But you have to believe. You can start by making Four Agreements to yourself as outlined by Jose Ruiz in his book of the same name. #1 Be impeccable with your word. #2 Don’t take anything personally. #3 Don’t make assumptions. #4 Do your best. Make these agreements to yourself and your life will begin to change, I guarantee it.