In thinking about dis-empowering beliefs and why they originate in our lives you need to go back to the first dis-empowering belief. And it's our belief about the Universe. If we form the belief that the Universe is a bad and scary place, we develop what Dr. Wayne Dyer, calls a "toxic heart". That over time, through thoughts and behaviors will cause a network of dis-empowering beliefs to form. On the other hand if the belief about the Universe, is that it's good and pure, then we develop what he calls a "pure heart", and again through or thoughts and behaviors, we develop a network of empowering beliefs.
Spiritual teachers down through the ages have said "what we think about expands", so it shouldn't be a surprise that if we believe the Universe is a bad and scary place, that we will expand our beliefs to support this belief. It starts with Everyday Narcissism (EN), and either through a dysfunctional family life or genetic predispositions or a trauma, this EN progresses to Narcissistic Personality Disorder (NPD). And if these mental habits are allowed to progress unabated they can develop into Malignant Narcissism.
If a person with NPD is lucky enough be be given the "Gift of Desperation" then there is a chance that they can recover, from this seemingly hopeless state of mind and body. Recovery from the "bondage of self" is a difficult endeavor, and shouldn't be taken lightly. It took me nine years, of working with a sponsor, and attending thousands of 12-STEP meetings, to finally have a psychic change sufficient to change some of my long held deepest beliefs.
This blog and the book I'm writing are a result of this psychic change. It's my intention, that by sharing my experience strength and hope, that I can help others, suffering from addictions, to find recovery, a lot faster then it took me. I often joke that it's taken me thirty years to get ten years twice, and while this might seem sad to some, it's exactly how it had to be to get me here. I've struggled with addictions my whole life, I didn't go to school to learn about it, and I don't have a PHD, to prove I know about it. What I do have is sixty seven years of an unsatisfying life. And if I can help even one person realize that they don't have to live their lives like I have, then the sixty seven years will have been worth it. As Maslow says "once you realize you can, you must".
Once I became enlightened, it became clear what I had to do. It's not that others aren't doing the same thing, there some great books out there, but the low recovery rate that I continue to see and have seen over the years, has lead me to believe, that there is a component missing, with the whole idea of recovery. And if you have read any of my blogs, I think you can see where I'm coming from. My blogs come together organically, they are driven by emotion and a creative spirit, I didn't even know I had. I'm being as authentic as I know how to be. These blogs and eventually my book, are not for intellectuals, they are for the every man or women, who suffer, wondering why they can't get this monkey off their back. I speak for the every man because that's who I am. If what I talk about makes sense to you fantastic and if it doesn't fantastic. My writings are not for everyone, they are for the people who are sick and tired of being talked down to. For the people who get lost in the writings of the PHD, who has taken a couple of meetings, just to get a feel. It's plain talk by a plain guy for plain people. I refuse to be denied, my right to share what I know, just because nobody believes that I can. It's not the fact that someone else couldn't do this, it's the fact that no one else is.